i read your profile. and I thought how sad it was.. i gave all that you asked for to my ex for nearly 20 years: honesty, loyalty and understanding, someone reliable.
but none of it was enough because when he found out that my little rituals that we did which helped me to function.. small things.. like driving a certain way home. or the little morning ritual we had worked on each mornign for over 10 years when we found out kiddo was being born to my little quirk of wanting to take a picture/video of anything being it was cleaned or changed or transformed as my way of coping with changes,.. to my loving to picking up cool looking leaves on our walks.. that all these little things I did to celebrate life and soothe any anxieties I might have.. that it all meant that I had something called OCD.. and that even though he had accepted it as part of who I was for nearly 20 years, but when he found out that's why I did what I did, to him that meant that I was some diseased creature with some horrible plague to be avoided at all costs and the fact that I could like myself the way i was, meant I was too horrifying a monster to be hugged or to receive any love from.
so despite being able to give him all that you asked for on your profile, it just wasn't enough.
so it makes me wonder.. on the surface, to give you what you want.. so easy for women to do.. but what else might be your other requirements..?
if you have read this, and wish to share your requirements about what you wish for in a partner, either ideal partner or in one that you would just be accepting of.. (say which is which) i would love to hear people's opinions of their perfect partner...
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